fresch-debo

well a lots happened and yet it feels like nothings actually changed i was really stressed out this time last year with the abitur exams and shit i was really not feeling good and felt like i can't handle it (and some i couldn't) and now i'm studying or rather i'm supposed to i'm kinda giving up on computer engineering and i'll switch to bookology or sth idk so yeah i'm stressed again but at least i'm not feeling that kind of... despair... i don't think my dreams will come true but i don't think i'll end up dead in a ditch or sth (sounds like i'm exagerating but i'm not for a long time i believed this would be how i end up) so yeah i'm fe

if you wonder where the fuck i've been the past year: it was either in bed, school, or on tumblr I also haven't really been drawing. well ok, that's a lie i sent about 6 christmas cards to friends each with individual silly doodles and i've been doing anatomy practices and shitty portraits but none good or interesting enough to actually submit here the last year was filled with lots of new tv shows, selfloathing, disappointing and simply causual crying but now i've sort of gained the skill to not care (you know how when people are depressed and their friends try to help saying "just don't let it get to you" and that's totally not helpfull a

or i stopped giving fucks who knows xD I'm very motivated to draw I think the main reasons are that I read through some drawing tutorials (http://foervraengd.deviantart.com/art/UNDERSTANDING-ANATOMY-part-I-220251993 for example) and I have a new drawing program called firealpaca and it works better for me than gimp2 (and it's also for free ^-^) seeing that I actually don't draw that bad amkes me very happy :) also Dragonios (a german letsplayer) inspired me to draw death from darksiders ll and now I can't stop xDDD But I'm trying to see if theres other stuff I could be happy to draw, I'm really into sterek (teen wolf) lately but I have th